First Impressions: House of Leaves by Zampano (Mark Z. Danielewski)

This book is intimidating. The End.

After Thoughts: The Immortality Factor by Ben Bova

The Immortality Factor by Ben Bova is a freaking AWESOME book. The book revolves around conflicts of all kinds. Every scene is a battleground and ever word of dialog is a heat seeking missile. The enemies are numerous, and the boss battles are epic.

This is a book about scientific fiction. This is about a brother's quest to change the world and save humanity from the ravages of time and disease. Along his way he faces many obstacles such as the morality police in the form of Christian conservatives, huge multinational corporations trying to profit from his expertise, his very own brother who looks at him like a pain in the ass know it all, and the worse most vile enemy of any scientist, ignorant people. These aren't his only enemies,  oh no there are plenty to go around, but will his talent and willingness be enough to persevere against a world turned against him. I guess you will just have to read it and find out for yourself.

You know I have heard a lot of people struggle with calling this a science fiction book. To those people I say, "are you nuts?" Seriously the events of this book never happened, and the plot revolves around modern day science. Fiction plus science equals science fiction. It's getting on my nerves that people feel like if a book doesn’t have magic wielding psychic space elves in it, that it is not science fiction. When did sci-fi get such a bad rap? More and more I keep seeing things distance themselves from the sci-fi genera. The SYFY channel for example is now hosting wrestling on the network to get away from its roots. Sure they can say this move was just to protect and build the brand, but no having WWE on your channel is betrayal! What's next SYFY. . . Dr. Phil?

Alright the main character is a man named Dr. Arthur Marshak. He and his younger brother start tinkering around with Arthur's idea to manipulate stem cells to regenerate damaged spinal tissue. I should mention that Arthur gets the idea during a night of hot passionate sex with a stranger he picked up from a benefit honoring Jesse. This is a character after my own heart. After getting some initial success Arthur runs with the idea with the notion of "why stop here" and attempts to regenerate other forms of tissue as well. Eventually word gets out that Arthur is playing God and that summons all the creepy crawlers out of the woodwork to stop him.

These aren't the only problems Arthur is facing. His personal life is a mess. His brother is with the woman he nearly married. The academic world shuns him for the crime of thinking its fair to benefit from the discoveries he has made. His mother is sick and the happy little family his made at work is having trouble.

As with all stories this one lives and dies with it's characters. Arthur comes off to a lot of people like the worst kind of know it all, the know you know is going to get the job done with a major success. By contrast his bother Jesse is supposed to come off as the champion of the people, the noble humanitarian. Really he is just a happy go lucky guy that gets things neatly handed to him and completely lacks his own initiative.

Julia is the catalyst. She ended up married to Jesse after falling in love with Arthur and nearly marrying the guy. In a lot of ways she is exactly like Arthur. She is smart, motivated, and highly successful. She can see the big picture where others cannot.  So its no surprise that Arthur found her complementing to himself in every way, and that she takes to making something out of Jesse like Arthur did. Let that sink in for a moment. Arthur was having sex with the female version of himself. I am pretty sure that is as close to masturbation as it gets. Jesse is banging the female version of his brother. Ew.

Smaller roles are filled by Cassie Ianetta and Patricia Hayward. Cassie is a fellow scientist working under Arthur on another project. It is her bleeding heart that becomes the lynch pin for the moral conflict this book is centered around. Patricia is a writer the company hires to do the public relations for Arthur's lab. She becomes the love interest that allows us to see different facets of Arthur's personality.

The story itself is told from many different points of view. The book is nice in that it tells you who you are following at the beginning of each chapter. Also the story is mostly told in flashback during the hearing to determine the validity of Arthur's work.

Overall the book keeps things interesting by raising very relevant moral dilemmas that plague our time. Is the idea of cloning ethical. Should science be steered with a moral compass or allowed to roam freely where every the evidence and facts take it. Is humanity ready to outlive its natural lifespan.  Where does religion and spirituality fit into all of this. Does health care really favor the rich and elite. The only way to find out is to gather the evidence and take the trip by reading the book.

Sidetracked: Throwback Soda

As soon as I heard of the throwback sodas (pops for you Midwesterners and coke for you people that are just wrong) I was thrilled. It was not because of the nostalgia or novelty factor, but because this would be the first time I would feel at ease drinking soda in such a long time.

A long time ago I learned the hideous secret behind corn syrup. That is a secret for another time, but it's enough to say that I try to abandoned all corn syrup sweeten products. Soda is one of these products that I avoided like the plague and spoke out against.

So I went looking high and low for these new throwback Pepsi products and still came up empty no matter where I went. I tried gas stations, supermarkets, Walmarts, and vending machines all over the place. I even took my search across state lines, and still I turned up nothing. Then finally this last weekend I stumbled onto a few at a discount store.

Now I am a fan of all those people who go out and try new foods and drinks. Right now my two favorite vloggers have series running about this sorta thing (LordKat.com and CinemaSnob.com)  They are really great and you should go and check them out if you don't already. Heck I had a camera I would do this kinda thing as well.

Now onto the taste of Throwback. Throwback Mountain Dew tasted sour as hell! I should clarify the situation. I was just chewing some of that Trident sugar free gum, the orange kind, just before I cracked the seal and took a swig. There had to be some sort of weird reaction between the sugar and artificial sweetener on my tongue cuz I just couldn’t taste the sugar in the soda. I guess it makes sense considering the sweetener starts off as a sugar base. So about four French fries later the palette was cleansed and I could taste the sugar again. Even then however I could notice a difference. I remembered normal MDtasting a little heavier than this. I heard that this actually tastes more sugary, but that is just obvious.

So tonight I tried the Pepsi Throwback and well it tastes kinda like Diet Pepsi. Once again this probably goes back to that sugar sweetener base. After a few more sips it occurred to me that this wasn't quite like diet Pepsi but something else. It freaking reminds me of Crystal Pepsi!!!! Yes it’s back at least in flavor. As you can already tell I was a huge fan of the stuff and drank ENTIRELY too much when I was kid. I miss it, but you know with the throwback Pepsi it gives me hope that maybe just maybe it can make a comeback as well one day.

After Thoughts: The Trauma Myth: The Truth About the Sexual Abuse of Children -- and Its Aftermath Review

Check out my first impressions here.

First I want to start with a word about something I found after reading this book. When I was searching for video of the writer to add to this article, I ran into a LOT of criticism toward the book. At first I thought well that’s to be expected and I was warned that it was out there, but then I started to read some of it. It really felt like people were bashing this book without having even given it a chance. They heard about it somewhere ran to Amazon.com, read a few reviews listed there, added to the negative reviews, and ran off to troll anywhere else they could find mention of this book. I fully expect that sort of thing to happen here. May I ask that if you must flame this book here, please do not just flame it because you have only read the title and nothing else. I am specific about this because this is a marketing title. It is slightly misleading, and Susan Clancy has stated that she doesn’t care much for the title herself. If you read it flame a way, debate is good, necessary, and healthy. If you haven't read it, try and keep the critiques based on personal experience and fact.

So what is this all about. The Trauma Myth is about bringing awareness to people that in most cases sexual abuse to children isn't always immediately severely damaging to children as it happens. The damage from the abuse tends to manifest itself later in the victims life as they come to understand what was done to them. When most of us think of child abuse we see children being forced into painful sexual acts by terrible horror people we would never allow in our lives. Even with a more progressive awareness of the facts that most abuse starts with people that you know and trust we still do not necessarily believe that those people exist in our lives and spheres of influence, and even if they did you would know and react. Ask yourself a serious question and really think about it, would you turn in your brother, wife, or stepfather if someone came to you and told you what they did to a child? Would you even think to suspect them in the slightest?

In the opening and heavily throughout the book Doctor Clancy makes heavy use of victims' and experts' testimony to paint the mental pictures of what is the truth in the readers mind. Expect to hear a lot of no nonsense accounts of experiences and feelings straight from people who were victimized as children. For some this will be quite an emotional ordeal. I found myself stopping several times to process what I just read from a victim. My own feelings and experiences kept bubbling to the surface as I turned page after page.

Doctor Clancy will use accurate and specifically psychological terminology. This may be a book you might want to keep a dictionary handy, but she does do a good job offsetting the difficulty. After given the actual clinical term for something she will immediately go back and clarify what she just said using simpler clearer language. I did find that this habit of immediately explaining things over again did seem to bog the pace down no matter how vital it was for a general audience's understanding of the material.

As a personal note, a lot of the material Doctor Clancy covered in the book seemed like things that I had always suspected and always thought made the most sense. Children being mostly abused by people they trust makes sense. That there is a political movement behind a lot of the understand people have and the information they are exposed to. Stuff like a lot of the educational programs geared toward children are completely ineffective as far as preventing the abuse.

A child might be able to identify an adult's actions as wrong or weird, but to be able to conceive that these acts will lead to depression, anxiety, mistrust, and/or shame years and years later as an adult is a little much. Furthermore a lot of the situations are contextually complex, since a child lacks the life experiences to help draw out the subtle details of the situation how could we expect a child to make the same decision that an adult would make in that same situation. Children always do the best they can with what they have.

There were quite of few things that I got out of this book that shocked me. First that sometimes a child can feel pleasure from the abuse. This makes sense if you think about it. That it is more common than I expected that children not only allow the abuse to happen but go along with it. I was a child raised with a lot of fight in me for some reason, and I had no trouble standing up to most people (most people pretty much included every adult in my life) that I didn’t fear so I expected other children to have had as much fight as I did.

Something else that stuck me was the way that a lot of relationships between child and abuser seem parallel adult sexual relationships. Acts of abuse tend to happen with a child and a person they trust. Same with normal sexual relations with adults. That the child may want to make the person they care about happy. Most marriages tend to work this way with someone wanting to make the person they love happy. Children who are abused sometimes want the attention that they receive from the abuser. I can't speak for everyone, but I can say that I too tend to crave the attention of the person I am dating. It just bothers me that even those these things can be quite similar (the first being totally wrong and the second being desirable) people treat victims so terribly. (I WANT TO MAKE THIS CLEAR THE CHILD ABUSERS ARE SCUM THE CHILDREN ARE NOT.)

I highly recommend reading this if only to experience the humanity that stems from the stories of the victims. I understand that some people just cannot tolerate the views expressed within but give this a chance anyways.  You will not find bravery like what comes from these victims speaking up like this often. For that I say this is a good enough read, but beyond that this book makes you think and in these we all could be better off with a little more thought in our lives.

First Impressions: The Trauma Myth

I have always been interesting in the science of human psychology, but I also have a personal stake in the field of child abuse. Without getting into details it is why I picked up The Trauma Myth by Susan. Since it is a relatively new book I had heard nothing about it and expected more of the same, but I was surprised by the content thus far of what I have read of it.

First I have to address the appearance of the cover. It has a gradient gray background that starts off at the top corner lighter then gets much darker by the bottom. Within the  there is a line of little paper doll cutouts of little girls and boys all holding hands standing at the edge of the darkness. Now in the darkness the bold white lettering of the title catches your eye like a beacon in the night. Up in the top corner the subtitle reads "The Truth About the Sexual Abuse of Children -- and Its Aftermath".

This is a cover designed to be sensational and to move books. Starting with the title like I said it is the light within the shadows (more on that in a bit).  It takes about more than half of the space on the cover with the word "myth" taking up even half of that space.  Even before reading this you  know it is trying to tell you that you have been lied to by the world and it is trying to light your way to the truth. Now a book on child abuse having images of those chains of little paper cutout children is pretty standard affair, however the fact that they are standing in a line between light and shadow means something. One could look at this and see many things, like children looking toward a bright optimistic future with a dark past lurking just behind their eyes. Maybe the dark history of this children are represented by the shadows and this book (the title actually) is meant to cast a light on that dark history; to expose the truth of it to the world. Either way I don't know, but I do know that this looks like a book you would see featured on the Oprah Show, Dr. Phil, or The View. It's simplistic and provocative all at the same time.

Before I get into what I have read so far I should mention that my mood was a dark as the thunderclouds rolling in the sky. I thought the flashes of lightning and roars of thunder would be an appropriate backdrop to the start of this book. Now after only reading the preface, introduction, and the note to the reader my mood has changed dramatically. That is a sign of how moving this book's contents are.

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With the preface you are introduced to Frank. Frank is basically every representation of a normal guy. One day Frank is on a train reading the newspaper and comes upon an ad looking for people how have experience child abuse in their childhoods to participate in a study. Frank has had a secret he has kept within since the age of nine that is tearing his average everyday life apart. Frank detours his life at this moment because it is finally time to let this secret out. Frank was abused by a man when he was a boy. Frank meets with Doctor Clancy (graduate student at the time) and shares his story. Frank explains to her that there was a beloved friend of the family that would conduct sexual behavior with frank in exchange for baseball cards. Frank goes on to say that he loved this man, and enjoyed the attention he received from him. Sometimes he said that it felt good. When the man Frank knew moved away Frank was sadden by this and missed him dearly. While Dr. Clancy listened to his story she could understand his shame and guilty for what had happened to him. How he felt "aberrant".  So while wrapping up the session with the doctor he posed a question to her that had stalked him for years. Was his case unusual? We all hear about how traumatic and scary sexual child abuse is. Heck one of the few television shows I still watch on occasion is Law & Order: Special Victims Unit which is based on how terrible these events are believed to be.  She bent the truth here and she said she regretted it. She told him that child abuse cases were very common, but she was interrupted by Frank. He looked her in the eye and clarified "No, not the sexual abuse part". . . "if other kids react to it like I did… you know, do what I did?" She just equivocated.

The introduction spends the next 22 pages talking about sexual child abuse. It is quite informative and interesting. She approaches using proper psychological terminology, but then she goes back and explains things she just said in more simpler and easier to understand terms that most anyone can understand. She goes into a lot of the history of the subject and shows how its evolved into what is in the mainstream consciousness. She also give a good detailed understand of the views she is trying to oppose with this book.

Personally for sometime now I felt like it was time that the truth finally came out about sexual abuse. That the media should stop telling these (she preempted what I was planning to say here) monster hiding the closet sensationalized stories and start getting the truth out there. Not all abuse is frightening, aggressive, and painful.  These views for what sexual abuse is like for children have permeated the zeitgeist (You have no idea how much I hate this word). Stories like Frank's are just overlooked or worse altered by experts and figures of the media to scare people about child abuse. Chances are that if you child is abused its not going to be done by some sick freak stalking them over the internet and fucks them with razorblades but by someone you know and trust with experiences a child won't feel are terrifying. If you think I am wrong think about it. How maybe straight guys you know right now would consider it abuse that the hot 19 year old college coed that would baby sit them when they were seven would ask "hey wanna touch my boob?" Now think about how many of those same guys who would brag about that sorta thing after a few beers who can't seem to keep a stable relationship to save their lives.

I'll continue to review this book as I continue reading this book, but by no means are my postings on this a substitute for reading this. So go and get a copy of this for yourselves.